Some days life just seems super hard and I feel like I'm loosing all my life to work. Eight and whatever hours at work, and a minimum [if the buses are on time] of two and a bit hours on a freezing cold bus means I feel increasingly feel like I have no life, or what I do have its spent sleeping [and I know there's people out there that work longer ages and spend longer on the road to and from work]. I'm still on the fence with regards to university and if it was actually worth it because it seems to be getting me nowhere. There just seems to be no jobs that I would actually enjoy doing and just feels pointless sending off application after application with not even a "thank you for applying" in response. I know this is only a temporary mood. I'll get over it.
My boyfriend [JJ], my soul mate is the one person I have that keeps me going. He's the reason why I smile and I keep myself going to work even though its a job I could do with my eyes closed. I don't think I tell him enough how much he means to me, I know my head tries sometimes to push him away. I know he reads this and I want him to know how much he means to me, how thank full I am for meeting him, for letting me be his girl. I know I'm probably far from the dream girlfriend, I'm probably not easy to date, but I know I love him with everything I am.
He "gets" me like no one else ever has, no one else has come as close to getting, understanding and respecting me like he does. He could buy me a hundred things and every last one would be bang on, he just knows. He buys me pretty, gorgeous vintage gifts that I cherish like this perfume bottle;
I could try and write about this bottle as if I knew what I was talking about. All I know is that its so very delicately pretty and that it's been waiting to be ours ever since he first saw it. I guess like me and JJ, we belong together.