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Something odd's happened lately. I've become more settled in myself. Maybe it's because i'm turning 25 at the end of next month. I'm more self assured in what me and Joe have due to thickening up my resistance to comments I often receive about our relationship to the point of arguing back. I know what I want and I know what I have to do it. Maybe it's because there's only [finally] two hurdles left in the visa. Maybe i'm just growing up and into my skin.
I've found myself getting back into fashion but putting my twist in, i've got back into looking after myself beauty wise and getting into little things like painting my nails and playing with my hair. Most of the things I have to sneak home in my work bag because one thing doesn't change - being scared of my mam *sigh*
I'm re-finding my taste in rock and metal music after a two year break from really liking anything. Standing up to her comments of it not being music, but hey who cares? It makes me happy. I keep playing System of a Down. There's something about the song Ariel's that makes me think of the future. It's still scary and the next month or three with change my life one way or the other. Good or bad. If I fail this visa thing i'm so scared i'll loose Joe :(
What are you all looking forward too currently? Any big plans for the future?
Oh Rachel, Joe's not going anywhere. You're pretty, witty, take great pictures and have brilliant taste in music. x
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're feeling more secure in yourself.
ReplyDelete& even if the visa thing doesn't work (which it will) Joe won't be going anywhere. And if he does then he's an idiot and I'll go round and slap some sense into him!!
Ps. I love metal & this song was my anthem of being 15.
I know, and I know we're stronger then this. Just silly headed thoughts because of the medical. Just been geared for this for so long and just feel like failing would be me totally letting him down.
ReplyDeleteGah
Toxicity was my fav album when i was 16 :)
ReplyDeleteTotally forgot how creepy this vid is!
ReplyDeleteElspeth xxx
I love love love this song. Made me smile. I'm glad to read that you are finding your place in the world, feeling more comfortable.Gives me hope as a very lost 23 year old!
ReplyDeleteIt totally is isn't it Elspeth. it's the eyes that freak me! I was a very confused 23 year old Zoey. To be honest i still am when it comes to careers and what I want to do with my life. That's the thing that still needs sorting.
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