Some people even though they are thousands of miles away still effect my mood. Especially when you just want people to be happy for you. I must be the daughter people dread having, the one that runs away because she wants to be happy and because she is in love. Not to blame them but perhaps if we'd of had a better relationship years ago things might have never turned out this way, yet belittling and feeling constantly small, in the wrong, and the digging wears you down after a while. So yeah, me and the parents aren't getting along at all, their silence is deafening, because I'm applying for residency in America. Meh.
If I hadn't actually grown so much in strength and confidence over the past couple of months perhaps I'd of ran back home by now seeking forgiveness. But I'm not. And I won't. Everyday I go to bed with the love of my life. I live with my best friend. He makes me tick, laugh, giggle, cry with laughter when he wrestles me down for tickles. We text each other System of a Down lyrics. Watch countless Big Bang Theory episodes and I sing Sheldon's Soft Kitty. I let him get me into Transformer Toys, we drive around countless Toys R Us Stores but I go on about compacts and my blog. We aren't rich, but we're rich with love. We have a place of our own. Two gorgeous kitties. We have each other. I'm never giving this man up to return to a mother who spites me.
While that might get me down, plenty of things at the moment are making me happy not forgetting our kitties and that today is pancake day;
From top left clockwise: System of a Down songs remind me of when me and Joe sing along in the car together to them. Tea dresses - what I wore when we went for afternoon tea [dress and belt from New Look, Cardi - H&M, tights - Primark, Shoes - Famous Footwear, necklace - Forever 21. Sewing transfer of butterflies, dragonflies and flowers - my next sewing project might even attempt some embroidery. Nicole by OPI - Green up your act nail varnish which I'm wearing at the moment brought from clearance for only $3.48 in Target. Sparkly Roskstar Pink by Sally Hansen [yesterdays treat]. Joe's application to be registered as a Social Worker in the UK.
Joe got word a couple of weeks ago that they are reconfiguration the application for registration to be a social worker within the UK if your from overseas. Originally in December 2010 he failed the application but he got a letter declaring he would now be successful. Sunday was spent refiling the papers. I see it has our back up plan if I can't get residency here in the USA. I could never live anywhere near home because of all the above parent reasons. We'd need to make a fresh start. So where we settle down is still up for grabs.
But sometimes that unknowing make it so much more fun and enjoy your pancakes if your having any!