Some people even though they are thousands of miles away still effect my mood. Especially when you just want people to be happy for you. I must be the daughter people dread having, the one that runs away because she wants to be happy and because she is in love. Not to blame them but perhaps if we'd of had a better relationship years ago things might have never turned out this way, yet belittling and feeling constantly small, in the wrong, and the digging wears you down after a while. So yeah, me and the parents aren't getting along at all, their silence is deafening, because I'm applying for residency in America. Meh.
If I hadn't actually grown so much in strength and confidence over the past couple of months perhaps I'd of ran back home by now seeking forgiveness. But I'm not. And I won't. Everyday I go to bed with the love of my life. I live with my best friend. He makes me tick, laugh, giggle, cry with laughter when he wrestles me down for tickles. We text each other System of a Down lyrics. Watch countless Big Bang Theory episodes and I sing Sheldon's Soft Kitty. I let him get me into Transformer Toys, we drive around countless Toys R Us Stores but I go on about compacts and my blog. We aren't rich, but we're rich with love. We have a place of our own. Two gorgeous kitties. We have each other. I'm never giving this man up to return to a mother who spites me.
While that might get me down, plenty of things at the moment are making me happy not forgetting our kitties and that today is pancake day;
From top left clockwise: System of a Down songs remind me of when me and Joe sing along in the car together to them. Tea dresses - what I wore when we went for afternoon tea [dress and belt from New Look, Cardi - H&M, tights - Primark, Shoes - Famous Footwear, necklace - Forever 21. Sewing transfer of butterflies, dragonflies and flowers - my next sewing project might even attempt some embroidery. Nicole by OPI - Green up your act nail varnish which I'm wearing at the moment brought from clearance for only $3.48 in Target. Sparkly Roskstar Pink by Sally Hansen [yesterdays treat]. Joe's application to be registered as a Social Worker in the UK.
Joe got word a couple of weeks ago that they are reconfiguration the application for registration to be a social worker within the UK if your from overseas. Originally in December 2010 he failed the application but he got a letter declaring he would now be successful. Sunday was spent refiling the papers. I see it has our back up plan if I can't get residency here in the USA. I could never live anywhere near home because of all the above parent reasons. We'd need to make a fresh start. So where we settle down is still up for grabs.
But sometimes that unknowing make it so much more fun and enjoy your pancakes if your having any!
hugs* xx
ReplyDeleteThank you!
Delete"Soft Kitty" can make anyone smile!!!!! So sorry for your issues with parents. I, too, have my own. I know it can be hard. So glad you have the love of your life, your best friend, your man that makes you happy. Having that can help ease the pain. And of course....the kitties.
ReplyDeleteSoft Kitty is like, one of my all time fav things! Yeah it sucks but I guess I need to make my own mark and live my own life for once.
Deletethank you for the lovely comment, the others got deleted for some reason on my last paris post! hope you're okay and that everything works out as you deserve. i love the outfit photo :)
ReplyDeleteAh that sucks! I have the bad habit of pressing delete rather then publish which is gutting! Thank you for your sweet comment x
Deletelove the dress you´re wearing :D
ReplyDeleteThanks, it's one of my favorites.
Delete*Hugs sweetie*
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that Joe can apply to be a social worker in the UK if things don't work out. I hope they do, as it sounds like you're enjoying yourself in the states.
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Yeah, it feels a lot better knowing that there is a possible back up plan [I always feel like we need to have one] but yeah I love it over here!
DeleteThis was a really cute post, about your boy I mean, not so much the parental situation. It's good to know you have someone to protect you from it all X
ReplyDeleteYeah I don't know what i'd do without him. The idea of being spilt apart again utterly scares me though.
DeleteI'm so sorry to hear things are tough with your family. It's not what you need at all and I know the distance only makes it harder. At least it sounds like you have an amazing supportive husband, (and your blog family!) to keep you going. At least you are living for you and doing what is right for you - I hope they come to accept that and embrace that for you.
ReplyDeleteI always think that even though I love it here, I'd be happy pretty much anywhere with my man. As long as you have each other, thats the important thing! :)
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Yeah I don't know what i'd do without Joe, he really is my rock and keeps me standing tall and being proud to be me and trusts in my choices.
DeleteI wish you two the best of luck with everything. I am sorry to hear about the strained relationship between you and your family. Thankfully it sounds like you have a pretty good thing going on with your man :]
ReplyDeleteThank you, I like to think we're pretty strong, things like this test and try you though.
DeleteIt sucks that things aren't going well with your parents but at least you have your boy to build a new family with! x
ReplyDeleteI just cannot believe the strained relationship with your parents can or will stand!
ReplyDeleteBut what do I know?
Our parents give Joann and I the family home and land for our wedding present and they moved to Arizona to live. But we talk and visit and love each other. Hubby's parents give their family home and Ranch and engineering business to hubby and his 2 younger sisters and took off to the selva (jungle)in Peru, a wide expanse of flat terrain covered by the Amazon rainforest that extends east, to help the people live better. But they still all love each other and visit when they can.
I'm so happy you are doing ok and have a backup plan. I truly wish you both the best in life.Hug!
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They've always been like this, they always have to be in the right and they'd rather risk that then know i'm happy.
DeleteSoft Kitty!!! Oh my CJ sings this to me when I'm mad to calm me down even tho it's the "sick" song. Well dear I'm sorry to hear about all the trife with your parents but I have to say you are so motivating for going after your love. You do seem honestly happy and that really is worth it's weight in gold! You go to Toys R us's too!! I wish it was pancake day for me...I think tomorrow will be Pancake day and make up for it on the next French Toast day. =) Keep your chin up and best wishes w/ the backup plan!! =)
ReplyDeleteHaha totally made me remember when penny starts singing soft kity and Sheldon's like no, I'm not sick! Ah we go to Toys R Us a lot, well all the stores around us we go a lot just searching for Transformers, that and Targets and Meijers! Good job I love my boy haha!
DeleteMy parents aren't really supportive of me and the life I've chosen either and there is nothing more sad and frustrating =-(
ReplyDeleteI know just when your asking for them to be happy for you, feels like your asking for the world!
DeleteI am sure that everything will work its way out soon, Rachael. I understand how tough it can be. My parents and I don't always see eye to eye (them as a collective, obv :) ) but we work it out. It just takes time.
ReplyDelete♥ laura
the blog of worldly delights
Your right whatever will happen will turn out however it must with or without their support!
DeleteI really do feel for you, it makes me realise that I am not the only one with upset in my life lately. We all have troubles and struggle with aspects of life. I can really relate to how you feel about your love, I wouldn't be a second without mine and it must be so difficult having to deal with your parents. Hope you are feeling better soon xxx
ReplyDeleteMakes me feel so lucky knowing I have him. Life can be so crazy and weird at times!
DeleteSending you hugs.
ReplyDeleteYour happiness is what matters, you have a new life and if your parents can't appreciate how happy and in love you are then they aren't worth it. Harsh I know, but true.
Harsh but it's what i've been thinking for a while in all honestly, always fine if she's happy but if someone else does anything - hell breaks loose. Life is to short to be stopped because of what it might do to people.
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