Some days life just seems super hard and I feel like I'm loosing all my life to work. Eight and whatever hours at work, and a minimum [if the buses are on time] of two and a bit hours on a freezing cold bus means I feel increasingly feel like I have no life, or what I do have its spent sleeping [and I know there's people out there that work longer ages and spend longer on the road to and from work]. I'm still on the fence with regards to university and if it was actually worth it because it seems to be getting me nowhere. There just seems to be no jobs that I would actually enjoy doing and just feels pointless sending off application after application with not even a "thank you for applying" in response. I know this is only a temporary mood. I'll get over it.
My boyfriend [JJ], my soul mate is the one person I have that keeps me going. He's the reason why I smile and I keep myself going to work even though its a job I could do with my eyes closed. I don't think I tell him enough how much he means to me, I know my head tries sometimes to push him away. I know he reads this and I want him to know how much he means to me, how thank full I am for meeting him, for letting me be his girl. I know I'm probably far from the dream girlfriend, I'm probably not easy to date, but I know I love him with everything I am.
He "gets" me like no one else ever has, no one else has come as close to getting, understanding and respecting me like he does. He could buy me a hundred things and every last one would be bang on, he just knows. He buys me pretty, gorgeous vintage gifts that I cherish like this perfume bottle;
I could try and write about this bottle as if I knew what I was talking about. All I know is that its so very delicately pretty and that it's been waiting to be ours ever since he first saw it. I guess like me and JJ, we belong together.
He knows already what he means to you. as you mean the same to him...
ReplyDeleteIt sounds as though you have a lot to be thankful for... Hope your week gets better...
ReplyDeleteI know, i'll kick my head into a better mood.
ReplyDeleteThank you gingey for your words - they are so beautiful
Hey honey - the bottle sure is beautiful and so are you! Do you realise what a difference you make to peoples lives simply through your blog? Your comments mean ever so much to me, and I love reading your posts and enjoying your gorgeous photos - if only blogging could be a lucrative career move huh?! Hang in there with your uni course honey, even if you never do anything with it, it may just come in handy later on and a completed uni course is of alot more value than one half done. What does it matter if you go on and do something completely different after it is finished anyhow ! I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life after high school and was enrolled in a BA course. I didnt even start it because I thought it would lead no where, and being unsure of my future direction I thought it would be a big waste of money. How I wish now that I had done that course ! When I was 24, by chance - or was it destiny? - I got a job in the planning department at my local council doing admin, and found that I just love the geographical elements of planning. I have gone on to do a Grad Dip and am now studying my Masters, but golly, a BA would have helped ! I dont know what you are studying (??) but hang in there ! You just never know where it may lead you - life has a funny way of bringing along opportunities, even in the most boring and dull of circumstances. Keep your eyes open for those opportunities honey - your life is going to be so full and rich and magical ! And maybe you could start a Vintage Warehouse shop on the side !!!! (I have looked into doing that myself on occasion - always scheming ! - and spoke to the manager of the mill markets here in Australia for some start up tips - I will pass them on to you if you are interested !!) Treasure your man - he sounds adorable, and you are both so blessed to have found each other ! Now that I have written you a thesis, I will give you my love! Hope you know that you are loved today !!XX
ReplyDeleteAwww kesenya - your words are so sweet! My moods picked up a lot since my guys got home. My head seems so up and down lately. Its weird I feel more at home working in retail then in academia but feel slightly wasted with the threat of having a mind which might start melting!
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about life and surprises, JJ popped up when I wasn't even expecting to find anyone and I wasn't even looking. But i'm glad he did!
And I would love to own my own vintage shop - that's my dream right now! That's what i'm working towards somehow!
What a darling, sweet ode to your love. It's reading posts like this that reminds me there are far more important things in this world that you should cherish and never take for granted of. You are blessed to have found love beyond what you can ever imagine or think of. And I'm sure he loves you just the way you are, wouldn't be much of a challenge if you were easy to date now, would it?
ReplyDeleteMy feelings towards my daily work and life are like yours too, the only thing that's keeping me alive from my mundane routines is knowing I have someone special waiting for me. That alone somehow keeps me afloat in this sea of mess called life. Just the thought that 'I am loved' is sufficient for me to go on. And I'm sure it's enough for you too. Just remember that you are loved:)
p.s. thank you so much for passing the blog award! Can't tell you how much it means to me!!
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Aww, I know how it is to be frustrated but I'm lucky enough, as well, to have found my soul mate and he makes everything always so much better.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, I recently came across a very good deal on Flowerbomb perfume but it was a refill bottle and as I didn't have the refillable Flowerbomb bottle, I had to buy a refillable perfume bottle on Ebay. I don't think it's vintage but it looks very Art Deco and has a black atomizer. Yours is gorgeous, I hope I love mine as much as you love yours!
Awww so sweet..I am so happy you found love, happiness, and someone who completes you!
ReplyDeleteI know times are really though I have applied to at least 9 jobs a week for two months and just got an answer for 1!! but we have to cheer up!!! I hope you surpass ur sad mood we girls always experience it at least twice a year...
ReplyDeleteBTW I love the vintage bottle its so glamorous!! hope it makes u feel the same way :)
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Rosa
http://mystylishlittlesecret.blogspot.com/
Cheers everyone. I'm feeling a lot better today. I'm feeling lucky for what I have, I have a job and I have a gorgeous, lovely and caring boyfriend. I have my health and my happiness.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your sweet sweet messages x
The perfume bottle is often meant to be a physical representation of the perfume and I am not good for a fragrance descriptions but I wanted to have a perfume collections.
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