My hatred of shopping ...

Okay, I'll admit it - I hate clothes shopping, I have a horrid, horrid time trying to find anything at goes anywhere near suiting me. There's probably a few reasons why -

• a) My head still thinks I'm two sizes larger then I am. Being once a 16 my head when picking things thinks I'm still that size and I'm therefore still relearning what things suit a size 12.
• b) I have big boobs - and I hate them, even after loosing weight they haven't decreased - oh how I wish they would. They really are the vain of my life!
• c) I am an hourglass figure even with larger boobs I have hips [of which I like - they keep my jeans up half the time]. But clothes just don't seem to fit, when I say this I mean dresses in particular and skirts to an extent. I WANT to be able to wear them! But they never fit/hang/style right. They'll fit on the boobs but just drown me out.

So today it feels like I wasted five hours of my life [mind you being unemployed I don't have anything else to do] clothes shopping for my graduation. I could of gone down the monochrome black and white look, which if anyone knows the associated football team of Newcastle it really would have been appropriate. Instead I went for purple, it's my favourite colour anyway.

But I just don't know if I now like it. In the shop when I tried it on it looked great! Now at home I'm not too sure, I have the fear it makes me look bigger then I actually am.

[Up close its a mixture of material and styles, it is very pretty]

It definitely needs black tights and more then probably some kinda hold me in scaffolding from the old M&S. I still don't know if I like it, hmmm. Maybe its because I'm not use to seeing me in a dress, or its too short, or the wrong colour, or makes me look all boob. But at least with graduations the gowns are always too big so they'll hide whatever I wear anyway!

Maybe it'll grow on me, until then back to the trousers and wishing I had legs like Betty Grable [but then again don't we all!].